I am going to be very quick. This is what I feel today, after a very long day at school. I have to wake up early because we have the training for our cross-country event this Wednesday. I work at evening session, but then because of the training, I have to wake up early, and wait at the checkpoint under the morning sun. I don't mind waking up early, but I don't like being under the sun. However, to my surprise, I have been in a very good mood since I stepped out of the house. I don't mind having to wait alone, and then having to replace other teacher and wait for two checkpoints, and afterwards, having to go back and forth the hospital because the hostel students are sick. Later on, I went into my class, teaching as usual. 

I kept telling myself - don't be too excited, something bad will happen. But I kept praying that every thing will be fine till the end. I am still praying hard until now. At 6.40pm, I was in my last period class - the 1.8 class (junior high), which is the LAST class. You know how these kids are.. some can't even speak English, or understand simple English. However, I am enjoying myself today - though being strict when in need and then, at 6.40pm, they said thank you and even added "see you tomorrow, miss!". All of them.

That really hit me hard. I was stunned, surprised to hear it from them, because it's been a while since I heard that - since I was posted five years ago. The students who used to say that were now in Form 5 (high school) That really made me smile and brought me almost to tears. Personally, I haven't felt this way since two years ago - when I was sent to morning session, teaching exam classes. Teaching exam class, you can't really have fun with the students, especially when the senior teachers will be like "have you finished the syllabus? have you done this test and that?" when all I want is for the students to understand whatever they learn, and eventually gets ready for the examination. 

I don't like the exam-oriented class, so it is hard for me to do my job in the morning. There's no fun in teaching anymore. When I was working as a replacement teacher, as well as during my first two years, I always felt tired at the end of the day because of the endless classes you have to teach every day. But, at the end of the day, you will go to bed and wake up feeling refreshed and ready (and even excited) to meet the students again. I don't feel that way for the past two years.

Thus, when I was sent to evening session again at the end of last year, I felt relieved, and I really hope that the "feeling" will be back again. Today, I feel it. I felt grateful, and I vowed to work even harder while enjoying the lesson with my students. I have to sacrifice going back home often, so that I can use the money to buy materials for the class. I really hope this will be better and even better starting today.

May Allah Ease everything. 

Waking up early and going out for breakfast in the morning makes me feel humane. At least one of my new year's resolution is working out well so far. These days, I've been sleeping early and wake up early even on weekends, and I feel so happy about it. It is hard to start something, but once you started, and you managed to keep on doing it, it is such a happy thing to ponder. Now, I'm going for my next resolution, which I have been trying again and again but always failed to even maintain of doing it for more than a week.

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So, back to the topic, I am still trying to find a "tune" this new year. New teaching hours, and new students line-ups. I am afraid that I will get bored too soon in this education field, especially when the environment doesn't really encourage you to use your skills to teach the students. I always receive commentaries from the senior teachers to just "stick to the syllabus" and be "exam oriented" which totally not my teaching style. However, since I have no choice to choose, I am forcing myself to follow that kind of teaching method and believe me, it is totally BORING! 

Plus, the students who have a super short and immature mentality, where in my opinion, it has been the tradition of the students in that school to not respecting the teachers who didn't teach them, and so when I first entered the class to teach (I never meet the students previously) they just ignored me. That is why I prefer the Student-Based Assessment or PBS to be conducted in school because it does not only enhance students' independence and self-learning skill, it also improves students' manners. Maybe I am one of a thousands of teachers in this country who actually enjoys conducting PBS. Because for me, manners come first, then your brain.

Students nowadays believe in their "tutors" more than they believe their teachers. If that so, they should just stay at home and be homeschooled =.=

While typing this post, I'm waiting for the photos of Jay Park's xMini Capsule Launching photos to load for me to put watermark. Yep, my sisters went to Singapore as we were invited to the launching of the super cool speaker inspired by Jay Park. Since my last post, every day is a busy day for me. The mid-term exam has ended and that left me with 300 exam scripts to mark (which I've finished marking 70% of it). We also celebrated Teacher's Day last week and I don't really enjoy this one because the year's theme colour was Brown. I hate it. It makes me look old =.= last year was pink and I like it XD However, the best part of this year's Teacher's Day celebration was when the hostel student threw a surprise event for all the wardens. They served us with Chicken Steak, cake, roll-down banner, fireworks and singing. They all sang this cute Malay song about teachers. The thing is... the wardens are a bunch of heartless humans so we felt so awkward and don't know how to react to that lol XD We just stood there, watching them singing, and them awkwardly clapped our hands kekeke~ Thanks to all Asbenta residents for the surprise event (you guys watched too much Korean dramas, eh? hahaha...) It was so meaningful and the best Teacher's Day gift this year ^^

Anyway, later on, my sisters and I went to Singapore to meet A-Prince. We were invited to cover their showcase and to be honest, A-Prince is not a group that we really follow. I actually listened to their song back then because it's so cute, and they were from one of my favourite group, Taken who disbanded and renamed as A-Prince, but then I stopped following them. I only know their songs but I don't know who's who. However, upon meeting them, I discovered their talents and how they actually are good looking in real life, and they are so free-spirited. You can feel them enjoying the stage for all the songs they performed, and what brought my sisters and I to almost tears was when they performed DBSK's Hug and Mirotic. We're pretty disappointed that we didn't get invitation by TVXQ Catch Me Tour's Organizer to cover the event, even though it was held in Malaysia, but then, we're glad that we went all the way from Malaysia to Singapore that we get to see five charming princes performing those legendary songs of K-Pop. 

And today, I was home, falling sick. Yes, this is the second time I was down with fever this year and I am so sad that I think I've taken care of my body well enough (I consumed vitamins and calcium pills diligently compared to last year) but still, I think my body cant handle the challenge I had this year. Well, God just want to put away some of my Sins, so he put me down with some sickness~ 

So far, I'm happy for the past ten days because my sisters were here with me and that actually gave me strength to handle the pressure I had with my career. I thank God for giving me such an amazing family which I can turn to when I'm down, and actually my happy virus when I feel sad and breaking down. 

Be sure to be back soon because in the next post, I'm talking about my new hobby XD

May be good - get it? ahaxxx, okay, I'm being random here. Well, I just can't believe that it's already May and if I refer back to my planner, there's so much going on this month. Media coverage (which means travel, writeup, interviews), mid-term exams (which means more papers to mark), Taekwondo show (under the hot blazing sun), Teachers Day (wearing BROWN urghhhhhh~!), my sister's graduation (I think I know what to get for her), General Election 13 (I'm trying not to include any political thoughts in my blog  because I didn't even register for Introduction to Politics back in IIUM), and of course, mid-semester break! Can you jot them down? well, yeah, it sounds so plenty and amidst that, I still have pending work from previous months to cover. Consider I'm pretty much dead by now, under the piles of PBS papers (like the one you see in the previous post, but now I got 4 files of the same size and thickness). So I'm not sure if this month is a good month or not. I wish it is a good one and may all my jobs flows smoothly, amen.

Nonetheless, I've discovered another Photoshop knowledge, which is, preppy signs! Well, I'm a fan of preppy signs because they are colourful, and fancy to look at.I can't imagine how many hours the designer created those layers and layers of masks to make the pretty signs. Few days ago, I made my first preppy sign and I'm happy that it finally looked like preppy-ish. Well, I totally fail in preppy department even though I'm been diligently following tutorials but I never get to come even close to something that can be called preppy. Don't ask me why this kind of design is called preppy tho~ aha... this sign is for my Socialien account where of course, it's my quiet haven surrounded by nice siteworld owners and talented designers. So, what do you think about my sign?